Posted: December 18th, 2009 | Author: jennihsurf | Filed under: Uncategorized | Comments Off
Bad timing
Is there such a thing really?
Somehow they say time will change and heal everything.
It has been years.
And the hurt just got deeper.
Time.
Something i wish i know better of. Something i wish i have more of. Something tht i once rely on. Something tht gave me hope.
But time after time. It dissappoints me.
Leaving me with anger. Pain. And i have already lost hope.
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dearly departed
may you fly with white doves
may you sing and dance with the angels
may you rest in heavenly peace
amen
-J
Posted: August 1st, 2009 | Author: jennihsurf | Filed under: Rants, Uncategorized | 4 Comments »
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i need to clean my room. its in a mess. clothes everywhere. new ones. old ones. dirty ones. T.T i dont have proper food in the kitchen i am always hungry when i get home and i have too many books unread. i also have too many products unused. like body lotion. face mask. hair serum. etc. i want to sell away all my books but i dont wanna sell them off cheap cause i love that i love my books very very much. i wrap all my books nicely and keep them scratch free wtf, but now its cramming my room and i dont want them to rot and turn yellow. i hate that i collect magazines cause i have no place to put them now. i want to move out from my place cause i think i need a change. and a walk-in wardrobe wtf. idk im just typing down my current thoughts due to lack of companionship and ear to listen to me whine wtf. :( time’s moving really fast and i think im hitting mid year crisis. :( age is just a number but who am i to kid. i love to dance but i dont have a dancing buddy right now. charmaine why are you so far away :( nobody dance like we do.. we just dance like nobody’s watching.. :( i miss that feeling so much. ok there’s too many sad emoticons but i am not exactly that emotional. i have this thought running in my head for weeks. i wanted to become a yoga instructor but i also dont know where to start who and how. money is an issue. taking those courses cost a bomb. seriously. like for example a 200 hour teacher training course can go up till 10k. its a serious investment which i am not ready to commit. i am having visions of myself 10 years from now and i am very scared that i end up a failure. :( especially the way how i end relationships. huhuhu… moving on to more positive things.. its the independance month and i love my country. but i hate some of the things here but i still love my country in general. i just think that we might have some serious political problems in the next few years and im afraid that we might end up not a peaceful place to be in anymore.
i can rant on but i am too hungry to continue. shall step out for some serious binging.
-J
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