If you realize the unity of your Self amid the diversities of your surroundings, then anything will not seem an impossible thing to you. Surf. Sun. Sand. Shanti. Ohm.

gone going

Posted: December 28th, 2009 | Author: jennihsurf | Filed under: Rants, Sad | No Comments »

in need of some soul searching.

i regret some of the things i do this year. and am really sorry if i’ve hurt you intentionally or not.

big changes are coming, i see.

big challenges ahead of me.

and look at me, trying to be, just happy.

i guess it’s not easy, to be me.

here’s a song, dedicated to all my friends, close, near and new. one thing i know, i will cherish all my friends for as long as i can.

***

Well look at all those fancy clothes
But these could keep us warm
Just like those.
And what about your soul
Is it cold
Is it straight from the mould
And ready to be sold.

And cars and phones and diamond rings

Bling, bling

Those are only removable things
And what about your mind
Does it shine or
Are there things that concern you more
Than your time

Gone going
Gone everything
Gone give a damn
Gone be the birds when they don’t want to sing
Gone people
All awkward with their things
Gone

Look at you out to make a deal
You try to be appealing but you lose your appeal
And what about those shoes you’re in today
They’ll do no good
On the bridges you burnt along the way

You’re willing to sell anything
Gone with your herd
Leave your footprints
And we’ll shame them with our words

Gone people
All careless and consumed
Gone
Gone going
Gone everything
Gone give a damn
Gone be the birds if they don’t want to sing
Gone people
All awkward with their things
Gone

***

-J


hmmmmmmm

Posted: August 20th, 2009 | Author: jennihsurf | Filed under: Sad, happy | 5 Comments »

all i need is ….

***

hmm.

right now im exactly feeling weird all over.

i dont know how many people in this world could have probably felt what i felt but if i were to describe it in a word… it would be confused.

i am confused of my own feelings. i dont know whether im enjoying it or im suffering. i dont know whether i’m happy or im sad (??? it’s weird i know).  i dont know whether i like you or i dont. i dont even know how to react when people talk to me. am i suppose to reply? or am i suppose to smile ? get even? be the sarcastic jane i am?

the funny thing is..

i dont even know whether i am handling it well.. or im just fooling myself or anything.
:D

u see that smiley icon i just placed… i am actually all stressed out but im smiling O_O am i a hypocrite? altho i know for sure im a contradictor  but now im just a weird. confused. out of my mind. person. O_o

i think i’m holding on for unknown reasons. i love challenges but i dont know what am i facing everyday and sometimes i get so tensed i just dont know what to do. or say. or who to even go to.

all im doing right now is being as positive as i can and hope that tomorrow will be a better day.

hmm. im not even sure that is what i actually want.

but one thing for sure.

i am still me.


RIP MJ…

Posted: June 26th, 2009 | Author: jennihsurf | Filed under: Music, News, Sad | Tags: , , , , | 1 Comment »

Woke up today with a sad news. :(

CNN have confirmed it as of 730am this morning… :(

RIP Michael Jackson. :(

I will always remember all your songs..

My fav song of MJ..


:( listening to it again makes me really, really sad..

Goodbye King of Pop. :(

:(